I walked home through Green Park from Knightsbridge. I had a little salt water in my eyes as I walked through one of Chillis favourite parks. I followed our usual path down to the dog fountain. A little Bluebird flew down to take a drink as I was standing there. A cute Squirrel stood and stared at me, it was very David Lynch. It was beautiful, this park will out live us all. I was thinking about how grief opens the heart (to more pain ultimatley) but then the price of shutting out sadness is shutting out joy. The stakes are high. Even if we pay the price for love in tears, its still a bargain.